So There Was This Boy....

There once was this boy. I met him when I was in 8th grade through a mutual friend that we both had. It didn't take long at all for the two of us to become instant friends and shortly after that, I called him my best friend. He was there for me through absolutely everything. If we weren't together then we were texting each other, if we weren't texting each other, we were usually on our way to hang out at a mutual friend's house. He was there for me whenever I needed to vent, when I needed to cry, when I wanted to share great news or when I just wanted to see him. He listened to all of the stupid high school drama that I had in my life and he talked to me about girls. I literally loved this boy like he was my own brother. I trusted him with my life and every single detail that came with it.

Our friendship was going wonderfully until the first few months of my senior year.  Honestly, to this very day even, I couldn't pinpoint the exact time that it started to fall apart or why, but I do know that it was long and painful and was caused by a mix of DOZENS of things! There was A LOT of miss communication, rumors floating from different sets of friends and loads of other things that can affect a friendship. Eventually, it got down to us not even acknowledging each other's presence. If you were to see the two of us on any given day, you NEVER EVER would have guessed the past that we had together. He said things that were awful and hurtful, as did I. We fought, hated, glared and everything else you can think of. The rest of my senior year was spent without him.

Many, Many months later, he texted me and asked if we could talk. I wasn't too keen on the idea because I had erased him from everything in my life, and I mean EVERYTHING. I deleted him from facebook, my phone, took down all our pictures together, untagged myself from all our pictures together on FB, everything! I just figured it would be easier that way to accept that we weren't friends anymore. I told him that I had a pretty busy weekend but I'd let him know if I had some time. In April of that year, my sister and I changed our cell phone service so we got completely new phones, numbers and providers. We received our phones in the mail and I activated mine immediately. While I was on the phone with my old provider to tell them that I wanted to cancel our account, I got a text message. I hung up the phone and looked at the text and it was him, asking if he could come over. I thought to myself "Good hell, that was perfect timing!" and said that it was fine to come over. We sat on my front porch and talked for a good hour and a half. Ok, there were definitely more tears (from me) and awkward silences (from both of us) than there was talking but he did talk some of it out. Eventually, he had to leave. He said he was sorry, hugged me and I haven't seen him since.

I would be lying to myself if I said I don't ever think about when we were friends. I would still be lying to myself if I said that I don't miss him from time to time. If I had the choice, however, I would NEVER go back and change what happened. Yeah, it hurt like HELL and there were a lot of tears shed on my part over the whole situation but he definitely taught me a few lessons. When he left me, it completely ruined my trust for the longest time, which has definitely affected me up here at school. Making new friends TERRIFIES me because in the back of my mind I sit and think, "Ok... so when is she going to leave?" Or "How long will he stick around?" It's taken me an extremely long time to get to where I am now! Yes, I am still a work in progress but I'm a lot farther than where I used to be!
One of the things he said to me has stuck with me since then. It's irrelevant what he said (mainly because it was heartbreaking and cut me incredibly deep) but it made me take a step back and look at my life. It made me realize the qualities that I want in my friend's and how I deserve to have people love and appreciate me the way that I am. Through him, I have come to learn that it's not about the quantity of friends as opposed to the quality of them! Thanks to him, I have found some of the world's best friends who I would willingly give my life for! They are my everything and I honestly would be so lost without them!

I don't know if you will ever read this or if we will ever speak again, but I just want you to know that I hope you are truly happy with your life. I honestly hope that football has been going wonderfully for you, you are such an amazing player! I wish you all the happiness this world has to offer. I hope that someday we can speak again or maybe even be friends again. I have absolutely no hard feelings toward you anymore and I hope that that can be reciprocated toward me! Good luck with everything and here's to your future :)

The whole purpose of this post is all due to my New Year's Resolution.... I made it my goal to get rid of all the negative or hurtful influences or memories. I resolved to get rid of all the sadness that I possibly could so I could live my life the way I want to, full of happiness. I can honestly say now, that I am truly happy. I have gotten this off my chest and I will let whatever happens because of it, happen :) Come what may and LOVE it!

MAJOR People Update

Since my last post was all about WHAT I have been doing, I figured I would update everyone on WHO I did all these things with!

Allen: I've talked about Allen LOADS of times before, both my mouth and through typing about him! Al is Shandee's older brother's best friend and basically our apartment big brother/best friend! We all LOOOVE when he comes up for a visit :)

Kohlee: Kohlee now lives across the hall from me! He moved in to Logan and Max's apartment when their other roommates moved out at semester. He is hilarious and I love when he randomly pops into our apartment to see what we all are doing. He is always playing FIFA when we go over to his apartment to visit and he loves blonde Leslie's from Sean Lowe's season of the Bachelor!

Andrew Bennett & Matt Hedin: Shandee and I are in the same volleyball class this year on Tuesdays and Thursdays! And I absolutely love it! I love volleyball and I love having class with my beautiful roommate. Andrew and Matt are in that class with us and they are wonderful! Andrew is on the USU spirit squad as a yell leader and Matt is his best friend. We've had class with them since January but have only just recently started hanging out.... but I'm loving every minute of it!

Colton Thompson: Colty is also in mine and Shandee's volleyball class! The first time we hung out, my roommates and I picked him up and we went to Taco Tuesday at Cafe Rio. Later that week we went to one of his basketball games and then back to his house for a game night after. He's been over to our house a few times to hang out, which is always fun! He is so stinkin' cute and I adore him! Such a stud :)

Tanner Burnside: Dr. TanTan Baby Seuss is my beautiful roommate Erin's best friend. He came up about a week ago to hang out with us and some other friends since he is leaving on his mission soon! He taught me how to tie a tie and we went to Kneaders for lunch for my very first time. He is adorable and his ties smell good :)

Dallin, J-Rod, Jared, Wilson, Colton, and Julian: I was introduced to all of these handsome, wonderful guys by my new roomie, Moriah baby! She used to live over by them last semester before she moved into our apartment so she was friends with all of them. We're in and out of each other's apartment's all the time and we're usually doing things together. They too, are all adorable and attractive and all that good stuff :) They're great!

Michael, Stephen, Jonathan, and Dylan: These boys live in the apartment above us... and we always know when they're home! They are extremely loud until about two or three in the morning... but hey, gotta love it! Jonathan is really great at sitting at our kitchen table and watching weird/random YouTube videos with us, what a champ.... seriously, freaking cutie! He also has a pet bunny that he is bringing up during finals week. Shandee and I are super stoked about this! :)

Josh and Josh: Quite honestly, I don't know much about these boys... I know that they're in my ward, they live in Moriah's old apartment and they were the ones that took up off-roading and almost killed us!

And that is the people update in my life :)

Until Next Time, "“The first time someone shows you who they are, believe them.” 
― Maya Angelou

MAJOR Event Update

Here is the post that I wrote about last time; the one I said would be coming soon.... let's start back in November when I last posted...

November: I didn't get to go home for Thanksgiving break because I had to work my first Black Friday at Famous. So my good friend, Jonathan Maughan, invited me to his house to spend Thanksgiving with all of his huge family!! It was definitely one of the most fun days I've had in forever! Jonathan's family is incredible and he has the absolute cutest nieces and nephews on this planet!

December: I went home for the two weeks before Christmas and worked at the Famous there. I came back on the 28th and worked at my Famous in Logan until school started again... It was TERRIBLE!! My roommates were all gone and I was ridiculously bored ALL WEEK!! Missed them like crazy!!

And now on to 2013 :)

January: I spent New Year's Eve with Jonathan and the Bradley brother's, Mason, Jaden and Chase. At one point in the night, we went and saw the movie 'Parental Guidance'. So stinkin' cute!! I highly recommend seeing it if you haven't! I also beat Jonathan and Mason at Poker... beginner's luck!
My new roommate Moriah moved in to Kate's old room... she is absolutely wonderful and I adore her!
I also reunited with a childhood friend of mine, Nicholas Furch! The last time I saw him was 7th grade, so it was good seeing him again! I also met his roommate and best friend Brendon... love those boys!
Other January highlights include:
-- Allen came to visit and I went country swing dancing for the first time with him, Shandee girl, Moriah baby and Erin Meeshell!
-- Went to Applespice with my girl Em! I absolutely love her and Applespice is delicious!!
-- Went to dinner with my best friend and she told me all about her new fiance and asked me to be a bridesmaid!
-- Went to one of my best friend's farewell! I love Elder Hayter!
-- Went to Taco Tuesday with my beautiful roommates and the handsome Colton Thompson!
-- Ran the clock and score board at Logan and Kohlee's church ball game
-- Had weekly Bachelor parties at Logan and Max's apartment on Monday nights
-- Erin and I helped Allen surprise Shandee
-- Ate at Texas Roadhouse

February Highlights:
-- MY ITOUCH CAME!!!!!!!!!!!!! I absolutely love it!!
-- Went hot tubbing at Colty's with the roomies
-- Went to a few of Colt's basketball games
-- Went to my Grandma and Grandpa's 50th Wedding Anniversary party
-- MARDI GRAS party with Shandee and Moriah!! Met up with Logan's apartment and some other people from our ward. Also ran in to Andrew, Matt and Colt at the dance!
-- Game night at Colty's house!
-- Mikey Boy made chicken and pancakes for family Sunday dinner
-- Went to a fireside at the Spectrum
-- Had a progressive dinner for FHE
-- Elder Chelen Sheffield came home from his mission in Germany!!
-- Went on a lady date with Erin Meeshell- We went and saw Safe Haven and then backed into an Audi A4 :)
-- Went to Olive Garden with Allen and Shandee girl
-- I missed my best friend's mission farewell do to a crazy snow storm! Sorry Elder Segura!!
-- Played Super Smash Bros. with J-Rod, Dallin, Wilson and Jared.... and DOMINATED!! ;)
-- ERIN GOT HER MISSION CALL-- CHARLOTTE, NORTH CAROLINA!!
-- Played 20 Questions/ Would You Rather with Colt, Shandee, Moriah, Erin, Mikey and Emi
-- Erin's best friend Tanner Burnside came up to visit-- he taught me to tie a tie
-- Went to Kneaders for the first time with Erin, Moriah and Tanner

March Highlights (Thus Far):
-- March 3rd was just a REALLY good Sunday for me!! I loved the lessons, I love testimony meeting... even bore my testimony! First time in a LOOOONG  time!!
-- Went on my first date with Nicholas!!
-- Went to Brother Morales' house for FHE with Dallin and Moriah! Totally dominated Wes and Dallin in Mancala!
-- One of my best friend's entered the MTC to learn Spanish
-- Had arm wrestle wars with Michael and Stephen Lewis from upstairs... I rocked them ;)
-- Went to the USU vs. Texas State game with Dallin, Moriah and Shandee. Aggies crushed it!
-- Andrew and Matt have come over multiple times... Good kids!
--  Went off roading with the Josh's, Erin and Shandee.... flew off the trail... almost flipped the truck... was scared for my life... yolo :)

And that, my friends, is what I have been up to the last few months! I now have the blogger app on my iPod so hopefully I can start updating regularly!! :)|

Until Next Time, "Time is the longest distance between two places."

Bucket List Update #6

Ok kids.... I now have the blogger app on my iPod so hopefully it won't be sooooooooooooooooooooo lllllllllllloooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnnnnngggggggggggg between posts!! An update post is coming later but for now.... I crossed #34 off of my bucket list!

I went on a date :) Thanks for the food Nicholas!!